and you remember that you had a deviantart account that's still active, so you look through your old comments and art and feel shame. So much shame. Pretty sure it's been three years since I've done anything on here. I made the big tumblr switch in 2012, and I never looked back(of course, everyone has realized by now that tumblr is a shit website as well). I bet that's what most people did as well. I've never been one for a huge online presence, but devart was the only place I ever talked to people online or shared my art. I don't really do that any more. I mean, I was an annoying teenager, but having the guts to do that is still pretty amazing.
So I guess, more than anything this is a journal to myself, as corny as that might sound. I've been reflecting a lot lately about the past. Here we go: I don't cosplay anymore. I've talked about cosplaying again, but man, it takes so much time and money to do, and at the time I wrote this I am nearing the end of my college days, scouring the net for internships, or any thing that will let me get away from this side of the state. I'm ready for an adventure. I know that 18 year old me didn't dare to dream about leaving, but that changed pretty fast. So cosplay or anime conventions aren't really my priority. I know that would probably come as a shock to 18 year old me. I do however still watch anime or read a manga every now and again. Those hobbies don't really go away. I love video games now. I watch youtubers, and play old games that I missed out on because they were mature rated, and I want to try livestreaming some time. Another thing I should mention is that I am a Design major at my school. I didn't really know what Graphic Design was when I was 18, but by now I think I figured it out. It took me a while to get a passion for it, but I found it and I don't ever want to let it go. I wanted to make comics when I was younger and that's something I still intend to do someday, but for now I still walk around and make up stories and draw out characters. My art has improved, even if I don't really believe it. The stuff I put up here is way outdated and shitty, but it's also a sign of progress. Speaking of shitty, I've developed quite the potty mouth. I used to think that cursing wasn't "classy", but I think when you've hit a point in your life where you don't have any money and you spend 90% of the time by yourself, and you realize just how fucked up this world is, it just kinda happens. I also don't have a whole lot of friends. I'm okay with it mostly. There are a lot of old friends I don't talk too, and a lot of friends that I try to connect with but who don't really reach back. It sucks, but I figure when I'm out of college I'll try and do more things like talk to people at gaming conventions or make some work buddies or something. I'd rather have a few good friends than a million bad ones. That's another thing. At one point I began to realize that some of the old friends weren't really that great of friends. This is just something that happens. You grow apart and realze next time you meet that you've changed as a person and they really haven't. And you have no choice but to move on. If they catch up, that's great. If not, there a billions of people in the world, so it's not a tragedy if you don't like every single one. Better than putting your trust in the wrong people and having it bite you in the ass later. Anyway, that's it for my ramblings today. I guess what I'm trying to say is that some shit changes and some shit doesn't. Guess that's life. Bye deviantart.