Been a while since I made one of these... not that I have enough watchers to care ahahaha >.>
IF YOU DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO ME RANT, THEN DON'T. DON'T READ IT EITHER. xD
Welly-well then, lets get started, shall we?
To start off, I apologize for lack of art, I'll probably put some up tomorrow. Maybe. Cosplays aren't going as quickly as I had hoped they would.... I should be done with Meiko but I'm not and there isn't anyone to blame but myself for lack of sewing knowledge. Seriously. Sometimes I hate my lack of knowledge for things, but how else is one supposed to learn? Ahaha. Then there is the matter of Maka. Oh maka. I feel bad that I have yet to order the wig for her. >.> yeah. And then there is Haruhi, who is probably the one I want to cosplay the most. Now THAT issue is partially my fault for not being able to drive, and being so socially awkward that I can't get our group together for a meeting. And now you think, wait, isn't that the King's job? Well she certainly has done a lot for me, and I think I need to start pulling my own weight.... but now I've just now started to wake up and smell the sweet smell of "HELLO? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? YOU'RE A SENIOR!! HURRY UP AND DO ALL THIS CRAP SO YOU CAN GO TO COLLEGE!!" and I think: "Well lump this! I'm not even 18 yet! Where the glob did all my beautiful youth go?" Probably with the release of the last Harry Potter movie... >.> Yet I find myself able to read manga and watch anime. Priorities my friend. Priorities. But I digress. Our King had realized this long ago and has been working toward her dream, rather than fart around with the rest of us. I respect her for this, as well as all the other seniors for working so hard compared to me. So why do I feel lonely? Probably because it's springtime.
But seriously, I want enjoy the rest of highschool to the fullest and these darn teachers and parents keep pushing me away from that. Or maybe I'm the one holding myself back? Gosh, I don't know. Hopefully I'll figure that out soon. ANYWAY...... yeah. Doubt I'll have the Ouran jacket anytime soon.... I'm half tempted to just buy it online, but that would be more money, and everyone wouldn't match.
Man. You know what really irks me? Trying to make plans. It seems as if only certain people can pull this off successfully, and I am not one of them. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough. Maybe secretly nobody wants to bother with me unless they really have to. I mean seriously, haven't you felt like that? That your friends are only dealing with you out of pity? Yes, I know, I shouldn't think those things, but tell me it hasn't crossed your mind? It seems that half the time I'm only invited to things because they feel bad for me, and they always have to decide before hand whether or not to invite me. Well shoot. Guess I'll stay at home next time, huh? eheh... Or maybe I'm just stubborn. Well DUH. I know I'm stubborn. It's one of the things I take pride in. Not getting into things you aren't interested in.... you should have the right to choose. But not feeling left out is pretty much impossible when you're so close. SO DARN CLOSE. Which brings me to a metaphor of my creation. The Wall of fandom. It's a wall you yourself have created. It can't be moved, knocked over, or destroyed completely. It is endless, and cannot be jumped over, nor dug under. In that wall, there is a tiny window. A window of opportunity. You see your friends through it, and see what a wonderful time they are having. But if you break the window, you risk disturbing them and/or being infected with the fandom disease. Is it worth it? Up to you.
You know what I have to say to the paragraph above? "I'm just your problem." eheh. I love adventure time right now <3
Sorry to anyone who is offended by this, though I don't see how you would be(in which case, please explain with grotesque detail. Makes life more entertaining, ya know). So, yeppers. In the immortal words of Forrest Gump, "That's all I have to say about that."